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The end might be sooner than I thought

December 10th, 2015 at 09:39 am

I have been vague about my job because I have been talking a lot of shit about it and don't want it to get back to my bosses. I think it's unlikely that it will, but still. However, this newest event is impossible to explain without more information so here goes. I might delete this later.

I work in a public library. It used to be my full time job but now it is my part time. I have a MLS but I am not a librarian. I used to be a paraprofessional, but as a result of the restructuring we did earlier this year I am now considered in a clerical position.

I did not feel great about that but I went with it because I thought I would become a librarian soon enough and it wouldn't matter. Then I didn't become a librarian. I probably wasn't even considered-but that's another story.

The main reason I decided to stay on part time and continue to work 60 hours a week is because I was still getting to do some skilled work. Most of the time I work at the public desks were 80% of what I do is circulation-checking people out and renewing their books. I didn't spend two years a tens of thousands of dollars to do that. BUT, one day a week I get to drive the bookmobile AND I LOVE IT.

I get to select books that rotate into the bookmobile collection; I develop personal relationships with customers and personally select books for them to read; I rotate books off the truck when it is appropriate and I get to feel really great about what I am doing. It makes up for the other 3 days when I am not being challenged professionally.

Last night my supervisor told me that I was going to start splitting my route with a new driver. Once he is trained I will go every other Saturday. She needs a backup driver (reasonable) and the person nominally in charge of the vehicle itself doesn't want this person to only drive once a month (also reasonable) and the person they chose can only do Saturday route (same as me). All of it is reasonable but when I got off work I burst into tears. I am so disappointed.

I have been an outspoken supporter of the restructuring; I mentor my colleagues, offer positive, constructive criticism about the new policies and try not to complain about my schedule. I have shown leadership during the transition. I have been one of the biggest cheerleaders.

But, since my previous position was the first of it's kind and is what the transition is based off of, I initially was trained in more places than anyone else. that meant it didn't matter what my preferences were, I was placed where they needed a body while the rest of the library got caught up in training. And I was fine with that because, again, I thought it would help me move to a higher position. But it hasn't. And won't. And now I get to do the thing I enjoy the most only half the time-which won't allow me to build any relationships with my patrons-who aren't even mine now.

It looks like instead of quitting in 22 weeks, I will be quitting in about 11. So, at least that is something to look forward to. I don't know how it will work out financially, but I am quitting once the new driver is trained. The new driver that doesn't have a MLS and doesn't have as much experience as me. (It's not his fault. I am excited for him that he gets to learn this too because I know he is jazzed for it.)

This main thing this will change is going to visit my family this summer. Plane tickets alone will be about $1000 for the 3 of us and I just don't know how we'll do it.

So, there's that. This library is like a bad ex-boyfriend that I keep running back to no matter how many times he break my heart.

11 Responses to “The end might be sooner than I thought”

  1. creditcardfree Says:

    I'm so sorry! I can completely understand why you are upset. Do you have other options in nearby towns to work in a library?

    I would suggest spending some of your newly available time trying to accumulate small amounts of cash, which could add up to enough cash to drive to your destination, rather than fly. If you need ideas for that post here and ask for suggestions, look back on my blog under the snowflakes tag, think Swagbucks, Ibotta for rebates, saving what you saved with coupons, interest on a savings account, credit card rewards (but only if you can handle it), and selling things.

  2. jokeabee Says:

    Thanks CCF!

    Driving isn't an option, it would take minimum 2 days each way (it is a 30 hour drive) and I don't get that much vacation time. We've floated the idea last night of spending our summer vacation at my partner's dad's which is within driving distance and then trying the holidays with my family but there are issues with that, too.

    I do plan on selling a ton of my stuff once I am down to regular hours. And I am already doing swagbucks and Ibotta, but imagine I will be able to do a little more when I have more time.

    Right now it is make do and try not to spend any more than is necessary...

  3. rob62521 Says:

    My husband was a library assistant on a bookmobile for 35 years. He said it was the best job because he made such friends.

  4. Livingalmostlarge Says:

    I'm so sorry to hear. Is your fulltime job at another library? I love bookmobiles. I wish you could stay.

  5. CB in the City Says:

    I'm a former librarian, and while I never drove a bookmobile, my favorite job was in a very small library, where I got to know the patrons well. I'm sorry that you will lose your small library experience. But you have another job to go to, right? Personally, it sounds like a bad deal all round, but so typical of how libraries are managed. You, with an MLS, doing clerical work and getting passed over for promotion? I'm glad I'm out of it myself. The pay alone is enough to make you run. My salary was an insult, really. But I do miss the people.

  6. MonkeyMama Says:

    I am sorry!

    Family is important, but it sounds like a real luxury to make it work this year. Sometimes we have to make these sacrifices. Remember it's just one year. Hang in there.

  7. PatientSaver Says:

    I'm so sorry to hear about the library job. I can see that could be a dream job for someone like you. I guess they don't know you plan to quit? Would it make any difference if you told them how much you love that part of your job and don't want to give up 1 of your days doing it?

  8. pjmama Says:

    So sorry to hear that - I hope you're able to find another position elsewhere that you absolutely love. It sounds like you're so very passionate and it's a shame that kind of drive isn't valued in the workplace as much as it should be.

  9. FrugalTexan75 Says:

    I'm sorry to hear this too. Frown I understand totally the feeling you get of "knowing" your patrons. That was one of my favorite things about being a school librarian - getting to where I could pick out new books for most of the kids (to suggest) and hit it right most of the time. Smile I hope something else works out for you - something which lets you use your degree and skills!

  10. Petunia 100 Says:

    Would it be possible for you to buy plane tickets for your aunt and uncle to visit you? Since there are 2 of them but 3 of you, that would save the cost of 1 ticket.

  11. jokeabee Says:

    That is a good suggestion, Petunia, and one I hadn't thought of. I will bring it up, but I know that they don't get that many days off work. Even when we visit they can only take 1-2 days off and usually not in a row.

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