I am not as young as I think I am. 13 hour days are rough. One good thing is that I am sleeping HARD through the night and not having problems waking up every couple of hours.

The first three days have been...okay. It is a very self directed job. My first day my boss set me up at my workstation and basically told me to go for it. So, good thing is that I can tailor this job to my interests. But it is hard for me to feel comfortable this early on without more structure. But, it is up to me to deal with that. I am already working on a really cool project and love researching it.

My first day AK (boss) asked me if I had applied for the other part time positions offered so I could be full time. I told him I had applied for one but didn't think I was qualified for the other (it is in a part of the world that my only exposure to is one undergraduate class and I visited one country once.) He told me I was definitely qualified and the Librarian in charge of the position was really interested in me.

I did get an interview for the other position. Next Friday. I am fairly positive I will get a job offer-partly because of how much AK is pushing me towards that job and partly because of how interested in me the librarian was when I was interviewing for this current position. Then today I did my orientation with HR and the HR specialist told me both librarians were fighting over me and she hopes to see me soon to go over my full time benefits. BUT as I know so very well, nothing is guaranteed.

AK also told me on the first day that what we needed to do was first get me full time and then use my tuition benefits to take a certain language and then I would be qualified for a certain position and did I know there was an opening at Vanderbuilt. It is nice to have a boss that is so into developing me professionally.

This job is a much slower pace than my current FT job and I think that is part of the reason I am not *in love* with it yet. When I think of leaving FT job I tear up. I don't think I want to go, but it is so hard to do my job now because I am angry and I dread coming here. I know the right step is to leave for awhile to gain experience and then come back.

Laptop still won't turn on and it is starting to bug me. I think I might try to buy a new one this weekend if I can't get it to turn on. If it does turn on then I will still be getting a new one, but not for a couple more weeks/paychecks.